We all have days when we want to give up….
Some days I feel like quitting. Some days I want to quit on myself or my health. Some days I feel like quitting as a mom...even just for a day. Some days, my business is hard and I quit on myself. Some days I quit pursuing my dreams and my purpose because it’s hard and I’m tired.
But there are some things I will never quit.
As I grew up, I tried a lot of things. I also quit a lot of things. I was someone that wanted to escape anything that was too hard and anything that felt like I wasn’t going to be great at. Why? Probably because I cared way too much about what people thought of me. I thought if I quit, then I was in charge of my life - it felt powerful. I would even get a rush from it. But l, if I did something and failed, than everyone would know I was a failure. Everyone would see that I wasn’t good at that. Everyone would judge. I quit out of fear. Not empowerment. I know that now.
As I lived through my twenties I started to learn that I would never be good at anything if I kept hopping around from activity to activity and job to job. And, that I would never feel a real sense of stability without setting down roots. I also learned, that the people around me needed to have confidence that I won’t quit on them. I need to speak it into my marriage that I will never leave him. And, into my kids that I will always love them. It’s HARD to promise yourself to never quit...but it’s so incredibly fulfilling when you realize you can live a stable, peaceful, fulfilled life knowing that some things are constant. The knowledge that God loves me? Constant. The knowledge that my husband is fully committed to me? Constant. The knowledge that I’ll always be their mom even as they grow up? Constant. It’s beautiful, really.
There are some things in my life that I will never quit. I will never quit my Faith. I will never quit my marriage. I will never quit being a mom. I’ll never quit on my business. There. I said it out loud. So even when times are hard, I’ll keep going. Not because I have such great will power (trust me, I don’t). But because I’m fully committed to living the highs and lows in every season to experience the beauty in all of it. I’m committed to growing and changing and improving but also knowing I’m fully loved just the way I am.
I know what you’re thinking, you never know what life has in store for you. And that’s true. You’re absolutely right. Things will always be changing. Things might end tragically or slowly. Things will never stay exactly the same. And, I’m open minded enough to recognize that growth needs to happen in my life & relationships. I am not suggesting you allow yourself to be taken advantage of or put in harms way because of your commitment. If you are being harassed or abused, please tell someone and get out! If what your commitment is toxic, unhealthy or mentally damaging...it’s probably good to examine quitting. But, for the most part, consistency is the key to your success & well-being.
(God models that consistency of character and unconditional love for my perfectly).
If I wasn’t fully committed to what’s most important to me...I just wouldn’t put a whole lot of stake in it. I think of what the opposite mindset looks like. You always have an escape plan. An exit strategy. An out. This doesn’t allow you to go ALL IN. I’m so all in with my marriage that I work really hard at it. To make sure he feels loved, appreciated and supported in everything. I’m so ALL IN as a mom, that I’m committed to our relationship and their learned independence from me at the same time (side note - being all in doesn’t mean I’m a perfect mom by any means...but I’m trying!). I’m so ALL IN in my business that my team knows I’m not going anywhere and I’ll always be there for them. And if they didn’t know that...this message is for you. I’ve got your back. I want you to succeed and I’m not going anywhere. There’s so much peace in that.
This photo is of me in Prague. A trip I took for my business. With the full support of my incredible husband. With my kids totally safe at home while I was gone. With a lot of fear around my ability to do the training and lead my team effectively, but with WAY more belief that my consistent steps forward would only help them. This is me going all in. Doing things that terrify me and staying committed to what I started. This is me embracing the struggle knowing that God has my back and that hard things need to happen for me to get better.
Interestingly, I don’t get asked often “are you still married?” Or “are you still doing that doterra thing?”. Because people see my commitment and consistency. And I plan to let it shine more and more as I find my voice and what I have to offer this world.
2020. Bring it on!
